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I am very sad. My big sister, with whom I am just getting in a sisterly relationship, is making a wonderful decision to take control of her life, but I am sad. I am an emotional person, but I don’t like to show them in front of many people. I felt the pain rising in my heart and didn’t want to let the tears fall as she spoke about how she needed a change for herself and her kids. How I wished I had the guts that it takes to uproot from what you know, but knowing that the outcome far outweighs the alternative. I could hear the confidence in her voice as she talked about her plans and even in all of that she asked ME what I thought. She talked about how she is so proud of me for finishing and succeeding, but have I succeeded? I have achieved many great things, but SUCCESS I have yet to obtain. It has nothing to do with money or acclamations, more of a peace within that I know I am right where I am supposed to be. And maybe no one really obtains that feeling, but often than not, there are no regrets. I have regrets. I live in fear of the unknown and don’t want to step out to see if that ‘unknown’ thing could be just the thing I need to put me on the path that I am so sure I have strayed away from. I know God’s plan is always revealed, but never in the way that He intended, nor in the time frame He created, but after many loops, u-turns and uphill battles from the decisions we make – thinking they are for the best.

But this blog is not about me, it is about my oldest sister, who has taught me so many great things since we have recaptured our time together.

• A sister’s love is unconditional.


• It never hurts to smile and say good morning.


• Saying I love you is very important!


• Crying is ok.


• Ask for help.


• If your boyfriend/man is too good to be true, I will follow him for you.


• Some relationships will never be what you want, it is okay to let go.


• You may stumble and fall, but I will be there to sit next to you and pick you up when you are ready.


• Don’t lose yourself.


• Blood really is thicker than water – family ties are arteries of the heart – they are still there after we are gone.

Gosh, I am going to miss her! But I have never been past the Mason Dixon line. And I know her time has come to be happy and prosperous.
Okay so the tears are coming…gotta go!

I LOVE YOU, BIG SIS!! I AM SO VERY PROUD AND IN AWE OF YOU!!! *MUAH

My birthday 2006.