I just laid Keilana down to sleep. She has croup, as with many childhood illnesses there is not certain why to figure out how she got it. She doesn't go to daycare, or nursery at church and for the most part doesn't travel in shopping carts touching unsantized areas. Due to my lack of knowledge in medicine, I am blessed to be surrounded by other mothers and nurses to who I can call upon in time like this.
I am constantly in awe of how each of my children have this special place in my heart that neither one can overshadow the other. As I was holding her in the bathroom with the hot shower on full blast and we just sat in the steam, I thought how my life has changed in 24 months. Many people say that they can't imagine their life before kids. I can't phathom what I would be doing if I hadn't of had Rico, but I can imagine what I would be doing if Keilana had not be born. Is it wrong? I don't know, I love her and I wouldn't change a thing now, but I had plans for Rico and I to travel and explore the world. For now it is put on hold, but now we have a bigger destiny and that is watch a little girl grow into a young lady and then a grown woman. We can provide her with unconditional love and support and even teasing and overbearing gestures.
Keilana will know that she is loved.
As I type and watch her sleep next to the Vicks Vapors Humidifier (that I robbed Peter the car insurance to purchase), I realize that there is nothing that I wouldn't do for her, nothing that I wouldn't sacrifice. Whether is is smooth edges due to the steam from sitting next to a hot shower, or 10 points for turning in homework late because she wants to lay on her mommy, or gas in my car because she has medical needs. For God so loved the world that He gave his only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in Him will not perish, but have everlasting life. (John 3:16) I am grateful that my Father put my needs before His own, knowing I needed salvation and guidance. I can truly understand My Father's love for me.
I am about to go in and check on my 1st baby and make sure he is not smothering himself under the covers and once I am satisfied that each is comfortable and snuggled in his or my bed, then I too will turn out the lights and go into my own dreamland.
I just had a thought that brought a smile to my face. Both of my children would go to sleep to this song as I stroked there hair...thank goodness they weren't twins...LOL
Twinkle, twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky...
Twinkle, twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are.
Goodnight, sweet dreams.
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I know how you feel! BTW, saw the hot water money and put a damp towel in the micro, then wrap in in another towel and wrap around your baby's neck and shoulders and chest, rub Vick's on the bottom of each foot...just the bottom and a little behind each ear....skiop the vaporizer..... skip the nebulizer.....and take over the counter loratadine (one half tab crushed and put into OJ.) Aren't children life's greatest joy!
ReplyDeleteI left out the part about heating the damp towel in the micro, but you probably figured that out....
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