So today I am not feeling so hot and it just goes to show you how fickle humans can be. Yesterday I seemed to be on “cloud Heaven” and presently I have let the Enemy steal my joy. I won’t go into details, but let’s just say this is my thorn and it is twisted a little bit and the wound has reopened. What I thought I had laid at the feet of Jesus, I had unconsciously picked it up and slipped it back into my knapsack of baggage that keeps “the monkey on my back.”
I received a new devotional from a very good friend called The Upper Room and today’s message was entitled, ‘What we need,’ how so very appropriate for just a time as this.
*heavy sigh
As I sit here writing this I think that my issue is far smaller than the things of this world such as the death of Pop Icon Michael Jackson (and in this I mean the loss of a child for the parents), the very public marital issues of SC Gov. Sanford and even more local issues of death at church and among friends, yet in still God sees it and it is very important to Him. And for that I am grateful.
No matter how prepared I think I am for a situation or how far I think I have overcome, I am learning somehow sadness will always invade my life even in my happiest moments. Learning to pray and truly give it over to the Lord needs to be my response because each and every time He already knows my need and how it will be used to for His edification. The devotional reminded me that God places people in our lives that are unfortunately going through a hard situation, but exhibit their faith and live joyfully, that the Word of God has stories to be used for inspiration and that family and friends are there to pray me through.
As the lady in the story, I pray for my deepest desire: a supernatural intervention in the life of a loved one. Instead He is showing me that it is my spirit that needs healing, doubt and fear need to be replaced with trust and peace.
Thought for the Day
“Whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.” (Romans 14:8)
Forgiveness is the hardest thing God has asked me to do. I think I forgive - give it to God - then I always pick it back up. Yep - I have a hard time leaving what I put at God's feet alone.
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