Okay so this morning, I was in no shape to get up and run. I didn’t get to bed until 1a – Accounting homework with formulas and such are not my forte. I thought about waiting to enlighten the world with my thoughts this evening so that at least I could say that I had a good workout, but something happened this morning that I felt was definitely God speaking to me.
Most mornings I get ready in my son’s bathroom as not to disturb my husband and daughter (who somehow every night finds her way into our bed), so this morning as I was sneaking back into the bedroom to grab an outfit, Keilana starts to stir. I quickly seek shelter in the bathroom and peek around the corner to see if she will lie back down. Of course, she doesn’t. She sees me out of the corner of her eye and proceeds to shimmy down the bed. Anyway, long story short, she follows me at I continue to get ready for work, mind you that I am still delusional because of the lack of sleep. She had less sleep than and I did, but somehow is bright-eyed and bushy tailed.
After getting dressed, I figure I have a few minutes just to sit and “chat” with her because she has been quite talkative the entire time. I sit down on the couch and pull her into my lap and just snuggled with me. Her little body fit so perfectly in my lap and her head lay in the crook of my arm. My thought was how she never is this still even when she is tired. How could I get up and leave her to go to work? So I just sat – my eyes on the clock, but my heart in a puddle. She looked up at me with those round hazel eyes and smile ever so sweetly and I continued just to sit and relish in the moment not caring if I were a few minutes late to work. She turned and twisted a bit and I thought how that moment was over in the blink of eye, but she just wanted to snuggle deeper and she kissed me with a twinkle in her eye. I glanced at the clock 7:41 and I sank deeper into the couch and pulled her closer. I had never felt so content in my life, how one little person that was created inside of me and also somehow makes me look outside of myself more often than not, knew at the moment that Mommy just needed to BE. No hustle or bustle; more of a quantum leap from life into a time warp of peace and stillness. We hugged, kissed and just looked at each other smiling and were satisfied that it was just us.
That was my AHA! God moment.
One of the devotionals was entitled “Wake-up Call”
Psalm 139:16 says, “All my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began.” God knew I needed that time with Keilana not for her, but for me. I woke up in a sour mood, half the week is almost gone, my homework was submitted incomplete, and I was running late. As the Journey devotional reinterated: wake-up calls remind us who we are: we are not God, we are not sovereign, we are not going to live in these bodies forever. So when you get a wake-up call from God, realize who you are, Who loves you, and then give Him the glory for it!!
And now as I start my day at 8:45 drinking a cup of coffee and eating apple cinnamon muffins, I can put on my Happy Face…
Psalm 139:16 says, “All my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began.” God knew I needed that time with Keilana not for her, but for me. I woke up in a sour mood, half the week is almost gone, my homework was submitted incomplete, and I was running late. As the Journey devotional reinterated: wake-up calls remind us who we are: we are not God, we are not sovereign, we are not going to live in these bodies forever. So when you get a wake-up call from God, realize who you are, Who loves you, and then give Him the glory for it!!
And now as I start my day at 8:45 drinking a cup of coffee and eating apple cinnamon muffins, I can put on my Happy Face…
Thank you, Jesus and Mommy loves you Keilana.
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